[merged] what to do (etc .....)

Have you been taking something .....

[MovedGoalPosts]

I'm not really sure what to read into your post, but I don't think your currently firing on all cylinders. That's a shame since last weekend your were clearly buzzng with excitment haveing seen your idol in close quarters.

Yes you belong here, and you know you will get some level of response to posts, especially about her, if only because some delight in taking the michael (including me - but I hope you recognise that that is usually done by most posters with some levity).

I can only suggest that you get away from it all if you can. The computer and particularly forums may seem like your point of sanity, but is it?. Summer is coming. Get out there and enjoy it.

[Nikko]

Originally Posted by Pem

Have you been taking something .....

I think he has taken a small step back in life and is analysing his feelings.

We all do it. Who are we? What are we? What's it all about?

We look to our peers - what others are doing - we make comparisons.

Different moods affect our analysis.


I don't know you, Kronas - but such as I have seen of your input on here, you have a lot to offer. Tomorrow is another day mate - sleep on it.

[carlingman]

Originally Posted by kronas

you sit down, you watch what people do, what people say, and you think hmm.... do i belong here ? more specifically do i know who my freinds are ? i suppose you could say no one does, backstabbing, twofaced idiocy, its all there in colour around me, and then the ever present self addicted intolerance towards yourself creaps along..........in words that proberbly would mean temp banning.........ah there is that.... also the hatred towards onesself, suppose i shouldnt complain about what happens around me, or what my problems are......but hey all i can do is sit back relax and laugh about it, so what if you cant get a job, so what if you cant get a girl, so what if you never make anything of yourself, so what if your all alone in the end ?.............i suppose there are always people worse then me, i shouldnt complain, i really dont, things get on top you, you want to self destruct but that bears no frutation, because in the end its back to square one for me........

so anyhoo i welcome your comments about any annoyances.....yeh the avril stuff i know, ill tone it down to a simmering level.........it gets pathetic for me even, oops i am pathetic.........

well there you have it... all i can do now is laugh

Sorry if i appear blunt here.

Same old **** again.

If your feeling down again try reading this thread found here

Plenty of top advice there.

[dilli-theclaw]

Originally Posted by kronas

you sit down, you watch what people do, what people say, and you think hmm.... do i belong here ? more specifically do i know who my freinds are ? i suppose you could say no one does, backstabbing, twofaced idiocy, its all there in colour around me, and then the ever present self addicted intolerance towards yourself creaps along..........in words that proberbly would mean temp banning.........ah there is that.... also the hatred towards onesself, suppose i shouldnt complain about what happens around me, or what my problems are......but hey all i can do is sit back relax and laugh about it, so what if you cant get a job, so what if you cant get a girl, so what if you never make anything of yourself, so what if your all alone in the end ?.............i suppose there are always people worse then me, i shouldnt complain, i really dont, things get on top you, you want to self destruct but that bears no frutation, because in the end its back to square one for me........

so anyhoo i welcome your comments about any annoyances.....yeh the avril stuff i know, ill tone it down to a simmering level.........it gets pathetic for me even, oops i am pathetic.........

well there you have it... all i can do now is laugh

I'm sure you've heard the expression 'Be careful what you wish for - you just may get it' - this post falls squarely in that catagory.

I'm sure you don't really WANT people to be %100 honest about you.

Having said that - since you asked - I've already said what I think, and -despite your opinions to the contrary- well over %90 of your posts in the last few months have more or less proved my opinion (and i note that at least one other person has picked up on it in a post too). But unless you see it in yourself then you won't understand this.

At the same time - I don't see it as a problem - or you as annoying. So I wouldn't worry about annoying other people - just keep doing what you are doing and chill out.

[kronas]

Originally Posted by dilligaf1701

Having said that - since you asked - I've already said what I think, and -despite your opinions to the contrary- well over %90 of your posts in the last few months have more or less proved my opinion (and i note that at least one other person has picked up on it in a post too). But unless you see it in yourself then you won't understand this.

and that is ?

Originally Posted by Nikko

I don't know you, Kronas - but such as I have seen of your input on here, you have a lot to offer. Tomorrow is another day mate - sleep on it.

"you have a lot to offer" i dont know what that is, being useful ?


you pretty much summed it up in the previous points you made (which i ommited because of a long post but are still commented on)

Originally Posted by MovedGoalPosts

I'm not really sure what to read into your post, but I don't think your currently firing on all cylinders. That's a shame since last weekend your were clearly buzzng with excitment haveing seen your idol in close quarters.

yes you could say i was, you saw a marked improvement, noticed it myself, i even became so sociable like my realself with others (offline) in terms of i actually talked about aspects that concerned me about others, even though it caused a distancing on freindship........it made me feel better.....

and you have to admit, its quite sad the way im fanatical about someone who i dont know, but appreciate lyrical and vocal talents, even so its borderline on being 'sad' (if not being sad)

Originally Posted by MovedGoalPosts

Yes you belong here, and you know you will get some level of response to posts, especially about her, if only because some delight in taking the michael (including me - but I hope you recognise that that is usually done by most posters with some levity).

i know that, it doesent bother me really, its just me being too analytical, unfortunately telling the truh is habitual for me..........

Originally Posted by MovedGoalPosts

I can only suggest that you get away from it all if you can. The computer and particularly forums may seem like your point of sanity, but is it?. Summer is coming. Get out there and enjoy it.

i keep relative sanity (at times) but there is nothing to do out there around me..

i only post stuff like this on here because i scratch my head thinking on what to do..........i could keep it locked inside and effect my health even more (been there)

ive read everything, and i still cant find a way out.........

ill give you an example.........

your in the middle of a room, there are 4 doors one on each wall, you open door number 1.... when you open it all you see is pitch black darkness........basically its a seemingly endless pit of nothing you just keep falling, full of uncertanty on when you will land (if you do)

door number 2, your freinds are there, so what do we have here........not really freinds if they backstab you, ignore you, talk about there own problems all the time, talk about the same things all the time, dont bother contacting you until there is a problem that i can help with.......

door number 3, ah yes the obligatory 'advice' section they give you, seemingly repeated by everyone who then analyses you inturn and thinks your a lazy idiot..........oh yeh and the religious aspect of trying to draw you in when your vunerable, quite amusing aspect is also whne others dont talk you seriously on your views about things, its always kronas being last at everything..........

door number 4 yep being at home, boring.........repetative.......non productive.........apart from being on the forum........when i hope to type to people about various things........looking for work........trying to get work....looking at all areas of work, i dont even know what id liek to do, so more uncertainty there!

so you see very simple eh ?

[zendawn]

Existential Angst.

http://www.tc.umn.edu/~parkx032/O-ANGST.html

Learning to know anxiety is an adventure
which every man has to affront if he would not go to perdition
either by not having known anxiety or by sinking under it.
He therefore who has leaned rightly to be in anxiety
has learned the most important thing.

†â€ÂÂÂ�SÃÃâ€*â⠂¬â„¢ÃƒÆ’‚¸ren Kierkegaard in 1844

[kronas]

Originally Posted by zendawn

Existential Angst.

http://www.tc.umn.edu/~parkx032/O-ANGST.html

some of that i can relate to..........

If we have a close loving relationship with a specific person,
we have probably experienced longing to be with that person
when we were unavoidably separated for a time.
No other person in the world can fill that special place in our hearts.
We do not want general companionship.
We want that one, unique, irreplaceable person.
This kind of loneliness is not built on fantasy or hope;
it is a definite, experienced absence of someone we love.

EDIT:

this description is perfect..

It is not the same as sorrow for this or that...
If someone asks me what is the matter, I do not know, I cannot say.
It may fall upon me in the midst of action.
Why am I doing this? It is vain and purposeless.
A curtain falls between me and the world.
I may try to evade it by plunging again into distraction,
but something remains to tell me this is hopeless.
I can no longer participate in routine affairs.
I seem to be excluded. My daily existence is dead and joyless.
This is the work of dread that slumbers within me

thanks zendawn interesting link...........

[dilli-theclaw]

Originally Posted by kronas

and that is ?

....something I'm not prepared to discuss on the board! If you want my honest opinion then I suggest you pm me - if not then you can leave it at that.

p.s. sorry about taking so long to reply - I've just got in from work. I forgot to take my wireless card with me today so no internet