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Bifta · 23-12-2003, 02:59

Undisputedtruth, yes, he's a right charmer.

Sociable · 23-12-2003, 03:46

Good to see you posting kronas don't be a stranger your friends here worry when we don't hear from you OK.

As for the "missing" post I wouldn't worry it was gone before most people saw it and was on no importance anyway. Now is the time to look forward not back so hang in there and everything will be back on track before you know it.

Florence · 23-12-2003, 09:06

Thats good to hear Kronas that you are getting things sorted and coming back. I hope the new year brings you the chance to continue and find happiness.

Don't be a stranger or we will worry about you.

Happy Christmas and I hope the new year brings you plenty of joy.

paulyoung666 · 23-12-2003, 09:43

good to see you back man , but you still never took my offer up did you

Bex · 23-12-2003, 19:25

kronie, unfortunately finding out who your friends are happens to us all at some point, we put our trust in people and at times they stab us in the back, but try not to let it affect you too much, because you do have people around you who care and who miss ya.....see lok how many poeple who have commented it is good to have you back?

bexy is going to stop waffling and find somewhere else to post

edit: gaz (think it was you who asked) it is the passage which talks about love...love is kind, love is patient, love isn't self seeking, etc etc

kronas · 23-12-2003, 20:25

Quote:

Originally Posted by Sociable

Good to see you posting kronas don't be a stranger your friends here worry when we don't hear from you OK.

i am strange you dont know the half of it

Quote:

Originally Posted by paulyoung666

good to see you back man , but you still never took my offer up did you

i have added you to my MSN i expect you to pass your number on to me and let the shouting commence

Quote:

Originally Posted by Kitty

Thats good to hear Kronas that you are getting things sorted and coming back. I hope the new year brings you the chance to continue and find happiness.

Don't be a stranger or we will worry about you.

Happy Christmas and I hope the new year brings you plenty of joy.

thank you, and thank you all for your kind words and comments its nice to see some people are actually caring

Quote:

Originally Posted by bexy

kronie, unfortunately finding out who your friends are happens to us all at some point, we put our trust in people and at times they stab us in the back, but try not to let it affect you too much, because you do have people around you who care and who miss ya.....see lok how many poeple who have commented it is good to have you back?

i know what you mean have sorted 2 of them out already just need to sort the other out.........

i hope to back to normal ASAP slowly but surely i hope i can recover

paulyoung666 · 23-12-2003, 20:30

Quote:

Originally Posted by kronas

i am strange you dont know the half of it

i have added you to my MSN i expect you to pass your number on to me and let the shouting commence

thank you, and thank you all for your kind words and comments its nice to see some people are actually caring

i know what you mean have sorted 2 of them out already just need to sort the other out.........

i hope to back to normal ASAP slowly but surely i hope i can recover

top man , nice to have you back amongst us

**Maggy** · 23-12-2003, 21:03

I've not posted thus far because I really don't feel qualified to proffer advice.

It is my firm belief that you need to talk to someone who has been professionally trained.
I can understand if you don't want to talk to your GP but there are councilors who can offer a much better ear because that's what they are trained to do(something that not all doctors can achieve)and maybe just talking about a problem makes it seem much more managable.After all you do seem to be much happier when you have unburdened yourself here from time to time.It has to be much better to talk to someone who has been trained to really listen and not to talk at you (which is what you will get to a certain extent from the untrained but well meaning amateur).

Please consider going back to the college and asking to talk to the councilor there or ask if they can refer you to another trained councilor if you feel you can't face your GP.

My daughter has had her problems at uni and at a certain point was self harming.She couldn't talk to me but did,when I suggested it go and see the university councilor.It has helped her enormously and I no longer feel as concerned as I once did.The fact that she was seeing a councilor also ensured that she had an automatic place in halls of residence in her second year and that she was able to get a hardship grant this year when she need a financial boost.

I feel very strongly that this is your best option under the circumstances.I'm sure that if you check around you will find some help also from a local drop in centre for young people of your age.
Try to do something about it though because there is so much for you to look forward to despite that at the moment it might not seem like it.

Incog.

kronas · 26-12-2003, 04:55

so life continues i am greatful to everyone here who has commented and gave me food for thought on my feelings, suicidal somewhat...... which are fully confused at the moment, by confused i mean emotionally i am totally out of my head would be the best way to put it.

its not that i dont care about anyone else, or that i dont like my freinds or dont give a damn about there advice on this forum, its just i struggle to show emotion at all im just like hmmm....and continue to stare i suppose its somewhat gradually stuck on to me over the past few months.

i know some have said i need to get proffesional help, but im not fond of doing it, simply because i have lost faith in anyone really to do with the 'help' secter, that includes doctors counsillers along those lines.

i am trying to keep myself occupied going out (being dul)l but trying to do something to keep my mind off doing something stupid...

at times its increasingly difficult, my sleep pattern is wayword just gone 30
hours without sleep, but i eventually got to sleep

sometimes i can be happy other times i just feel like hiting someone, other times i just feel like hiding

strange i know...........

earlier today i had one of my freinds whos a churchy recommended i turn to god the second time since i told him my problem he has said that, and i didnt even respond those of you who know me know i would have 'kicked off'

i guess thats another freindship to end, i have repeatidly told the person previously to let me live my life, and stop the imposing on me of religion

if i can actually show an angry emotion

but i move along somehow...........

i hope everyone had a great christmas got loads of pressies and turkey

paulyoung666 · 26-12-2003, 09:38

at the bit about not liking professional help , have you got one really trusted friend that you could take somewhere and see someone , just a thought

Bex · 26-12-2003, 12:32

babes noone likes to get 'professional' help but sometimes it is the only way to get out of the bottomless pit...... it is something to think about anyway

kronas · 04-01-2004, 05:33

ok the new year is around us 2004, i hope everyone has a prosperous year this year. (those who deserve it)

im feeling better then i have been since i started this thread, but i have my days all too regularly.

i sit down and i think why am i so unhappy...... i have great parents, i have some great freinds, i mean you people on here, who have talked to me as well as posted on here, for which i very much appreciate you dont know how much...

i try and delve deeper in to my thoughts and this is what i see.......

the build up of negativity centered around the inability to achieve something in life, due to the past and present, one must say how can a person achieve nothing in his life ?

by nothing i mean life in general i dont mean people who have helped me on here, and tryed to give me good advice, i guess im lucky (for once) to have people like this.......

the way i have interpreted my life as it has progressed, is one with deep disatisfaction, not so much as regretting what i have done, (most of it was really out of my hands) but i thought i could show something, i mean something that would provide me with some hope that i have a future in society, i can help people as i still do offline if i am asked on various things............

at the moment im in a 'self destruct' like sequence almost, isolating myself from people the freinds who i have left........

i know what people say get counseling etc, but i really dont trust proffesionals anymore, they tend to go in to things to deep in to your family, freinds, the first mention of suicide will trigger them in to thinking there is something wrong mentally as most proberbly do.

i dont mean to offend genuine people who help in those professions, such as those but it does happen.......

but it really is getting worse in some situations, i go 30+ hours without sleeping at a time, my eating seems to have deteriorated in to a worse state.

i dont really care about life anymore on the whole, i dont really watch tv, what little tv i watched is of no interest, i dont feel like talking to anyone verbally.

if i do i dont really have much to say, even to counter something, which i feel is wrong, you could say i dont 'give a damn about anything' anymore, i mean no offense to people who have helped me but im just saying what i feel.

Sociable · 04-01-2004, 14:18

Give me a call Kronas you have my number OK

I think I may be able to explain a few things about how you can get past some of the current issues and also explain how they are connected with the past ones in a way that may help you resolve enough of them to move forward.

Ramrod · 04-01-2004, 16:08

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Originally Posted by kronas

ok the new year is around us 2004, i hope everyone has a prosperous year this year. (those who deserve it)

.

It could just be the time of year. My wife is pretty 'down' atm as well (in fact, if she hadn't married me she would be living in Australia now-poor woman, never mind

). Lack of sunshine and grey skies(and marrying me

) can do that to you. You could have 'seasonal affective disorder'.....known by its acronym -'SAD'

(don't the scandinavian countries like Finland have the highest rates of depression/suicide in the world because of it?)

kronas · 02-05-2004, 02:12

you sit down, you watch what people do, what people say, and you think hmm.... do i belong here ? more specifically do i know who my freinds are ? i suppose you could say no one does, backstabbing, twofaced idiocy, its all there in colour around me, and then the ever present self addicted intolerance towards yourself creaps along..........in words that proberbly would mean temp banning.........ah there is that.... also the hatred towards onesself, suppose i shouldnt complain about what happens around me, or what my problems are......but hey all i can do is sit back relax and laugh about it, so what if you cant get a job, so what if you cant get a girl, so what if you never make anything of yourself, so what if your all alone in the end ?.............i suppose there are always people worse then me, i shouldnt complain, i really dont, things get on top you, you want to self destruct but that bears no frutation, because in the end its back to square one for me........

so anyhoo i welcome your comments about any annoyances.....yeh the avril stuff i know, ill tone it down to a simmering level.........it gets pathetic for me even, oops i am pathetic.........

well there you have it... all i can do now is laugh