when you stop worrying quite so much what other people think of you, you will find a huge weight lifted off your shoulders. I did.
oh and most libraries have a reference section, go here
http://dspace.dial.pipex.com/town/sq...0/weblibs.html or here
http://www.direct.gov.uk/LeisureAndR...790&chk=B6pJtJ
kronas - I know you won't believe me, but you will get through this. Things will get better. It just takes time, I know it seems like forever, and that everyone is against you - I've been there, got the tshirt, etc. - Jules is right - you need to find something that will get you out of the house, even if only for a couple of hours here and there
http://www.do-it.org.uk/ has a huge db of volunteering vacancies all over the uk and beyond. You could even find a placement where you live on site
http://www.csv.org.uk/Volunteer/ and get paid (a small allowance) to do it. Or just go to your local charity shop.
