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Originally Posted by allieyoung666
Kronas nobody is tough, trust me on this. Before I went to work in the private sector Iwould have never belived it. A 45 yr old managing director came on to the ward crying to sectioned as he had enough of society. I know this guy and I was gobsmacked!!!
He seemed a tough nut to crack, owned a sucessful nursing home business and car dealership, but could not cope anymore. You see it happens to all of us and I mean all of us!!!!! I started To feel the way I did when I was17 and it has never ever gone away, **** I have even tried to taken my life on various times, but I am still here!!!! Life is crap and it does not care who it picks on to shed it's load I am sorry to say and I do understand where you are comming from just ask Paul!!!!
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im not disrespecting any other person out there but i do agree that even the toughest of the tough fall, indeed one fo my ex-freinds told me he had a few nervey moments in life, but he overcame them but he coped in his own way and is able to work.. and even though i dont respect him at all because of what hes done in his past and present he has still 'moved on' thats what enables some people to actually progress in life, life is about pleasure happiness and stability but you have to work hard first before you get all that.
everyday i become increasingly disillusioned by the amount of greed, synthetic love illtreatment, and undiplomatic means at which fellow humans can 'progress' on and not have a conscience about them to even know what they are doing is hurting other individuals, to be used and manipulated for their own means.....it seems to be happening all around me and even through other people....
i mean from what im going through now is not as bad as it was a month ago....im always told 'take your medicines and you will be fine' yet i was getting worse and worse, i became crippled almost to the extent i lost my appetitie and found it hard to move, anxiety attacks and mood swings, coupled with an overdose and suicidal attempts...
im off medication and even though im not feeling too good i can atleast venture to some sort of normality, i feel the exact opposite to how i was a month ago, i know medication for depression seriously is detrimental to your health but i took the risk and almost paid the price with my life.....
right now im calm, finding some focus and smiling, and not feeling all that crap, yes im down and out most of the time as the minutes and days pass im not feeling 'the pressure' and i do think some of my symptoms were made worse by the medication which was changed and changed again.
there is medical evidence to suggest some medication will actually cause suicidal tendences...
i dont know where im going in life and i do know that there are people who have lost an arm or arms legs, eyesight, millions starve around the world, children men and women, orphaned kids and countless other people wiith degenerative diseases and so on....and im here with almost all my facultys intact with a loving caring family.....but it doesent change the way you are as a person, because deep down in your guts, your heart of hearts you have to believe in yourself, be an individual and stand up in the crowd and position yourself in life where your comfortable and happy.....its easier said than done but its about hope too, that can be lost very easily..