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07-04-2005, 19:30

I totally despised school. I wasn't bullied really, and I'm so lucky for that, but I think the reason was that I was rather lonely. I did have a friend group that I hung around with, and although they never caused me any harm they were totally different people than I were. The chavs referred to us as 'the geeks' . They had their part of the playground, and we had our own autonomous part of the playground

hehe. I went to a very small school you see, and there were few people in my year.You may be asking me to stop moaning, being with the wrong group of people isn't that bad. But really, spending 5 years at school day in day out, not really fitting in with anyone and not having any decent conversation really is depressing. It reached extreme lows in Year 10 and all just got too much within an RE lesson and I just started crying uncontrollably, and eventually I developed anxiety disorder and I genuinely think I was close to breakdown and had 4 weeks off, and only came back after being forced by my mother, and I fought very hard not to go back. If I had it my own way, I'd have studied at home, to get me away from people and to leave me alone, and I honestly think I'd have learnt so much more if I was left alone with a book rather than having to rely on the shocking teaching standard at that ghastly school. Not many people understood what I was actually going through, my friends had no idea somehow and my teachers said that I seemed a popular happy student. Happiness was the last emotion I was feeling.

I think if I'd have gone to a different school with different peers, things would have been a lot different.

College is very different. I have met lots of new people and formed great friendships which I'm sure will last for a long time. It's a completely different environment. I believe I'm starting to be happy, something which I haven't been for many years. I am with so many people just like me, and I think that is great. And I'm very grateful for this

I often have to go back to school to get some information about the IT GCSE which I'm retaking, and it really does make me feel very uneasy and the unhappiness all comes flooding back. It's horrible.

07-04-2005, 19:30	#41
Macca371 Guest Posts: n/a	Re: School I totally despised school. I wasn't bullied really, and I'm so lucky for that, but I think the reason was that I was rather lonely. I did have a friend group that I hung around with, and although they never caused me any harm they were totally different people than I were. The chavs referred to us as 'the geeks' . They had their part of the playground, and we had our own autonomous part of the playground hehe. I went to a very small school you see, and there were few people in my year.You may be asking me to stop moaning, being with the wrong group of people isn't that bad. But really, spending 5 years at school day in day out, not really fitting in with anyone and not having any decent conversation really is depressing. It reached extreme lows in Year 10 and all just got too much within an RE lesson and I just started crying uncontrollably, and eventually I developed anxiety disorder and I genuinely think I was close to breakdown and had 4 weeks off, and only came back after being forced by my mother, and I fought very hard not to go back. If I had it my own way, I'd have studied at home, to get me away from people and to leave me alone, and I honestly think I'd have learnt so much more if I was left alone with a book rather than having to rely on the shocking teaching standard at that ghastly school. Not many people understood what I was actually going through, my friends had no idea somehow and my teachers said that I seemed a popular happy student. Happiness was the last emotion I was feeling. I think if I'd have gone to a different school with different peers, things would have been a lot different. College is very different. I have met lots of new people and formed great friendships which I'm sure will last for a long time. It's a completely different environment. I believe I'm starting to be happy, something which I haven't been for many years. I am with so many people just like me, and I think that is great. And I'm very grateful for this I often have to go back to school to get some information about the IT GCSE which I'm retaking, and it really does make me feel very uneasy and the unhappiness all comes flooding back. It's horrible.