[Jaymoss]

I would call it a compulsion rather than an addiction.

I am a very compulsive person which definitely can be negative as well as positive.
I am a compulsive eater which led to my weight problem and I am a compulsive dieter which is leading to my massive weight loss and when I train I am a compulsive trainer'

I have been going through my clothes and I have 32 inch waist up to 64 inch elastic waisted trousers and massive joggers and over my adult life I have drifted between them a few times. I do feel my diet this time has a better chance to remain due to a more balance with food than I have had and so far I am not training which may sound mad but is a good thing. When I get fit I pull women which inevitably ends in heartbreak which starts the eat cycle again.

So I guess this brings me to a hate for the day and that is my brain injury my anxiety and by depression which means my life has been a yoyo of good times and bad times and the mirroring fit and fat times