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Thanks (all the above).

To be honest I'm hoping for option F which is leave me alone (hospitals and doctors) but hope something happens that makes the decision for me (kind of heading that way, I just hope it's sooner rather than later). As I know whatever option I go for will most probably be the wrong one knowing my luck.

On the plus side 5-8 years tops now is a better outcome than were I was last year. Though the reality has kicked in a whole lot more now, so been in limbo for a while and I don't expect it to get any better.

I can only know what you're going through Jo through my own wife's eyes. I might be flippant with my comments about how things are but I just daren't go there yet to how things will end up later and how it affects everyone else around me. I'm hitting a brick wall now (mentally not physically) .