kronas I think it's a case of you will have to go OUT and find them.They will not come knocking at your door.
However you need to sort out your issues of self esteem first.Until you have confidence in yourself you will have problems.scastle is right it's about the aura you put out,not looks and that comes from accepting who you are yourself.Once you stop worrying about what people think is the moment you can begin to show people who the real kronas is like.
Besides you are only 18,you have PLENTY of time.
I was a late starter myself(too busy studying,too shy,too concerned with the fact I wore glasses and wasn't like Twiggy).When I look at my photos of my 16-18 year old self I'm amazed I thought I was ugly.So it is about building your self-confidence up.Once you have that you can conquer anything.
Incog.