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kronas · 04-01-2004, 05:33

ok the new year is around us 2004, i hope everyone has a prosperous year this year. (those who deserve it)

im feeling better then i have been since i started this thread, but i have my days all too regularly.

i sit down and i think why am i so unhappy...... i have great parents, i have some great freinds, i mean you people on here, who have talked to me as well as posted on here, for which i very much appreciate you dont know how much...

i try and delve deeper in to my thoughts and this is what i see.......

the build up of negativity centered around the inability to achieve something in life, due to the past and present, one must say how can a person achieve nothing in his life ?

by nothing i mean life in general i dont mean people who have helped me on here, and tryed to give me good advice, i guess im lucky (for once) to have people like this.......

the way i have interpreted my life as it has progressed, is one with deep disatisfaction, not so much as regretting what i have done, (most of it was really out of my hands) but i thought i could show something, i mean something that would provide me with some hope that i have a future in society, i can help people as i still do offline if i am asked on various things............

at the moment im in a 'self destruct' like sequence almost, isolating myself from people the freinds who i have left........

i know what people say get counseling etc, but i really dont trust proffesionals anymore, they tend to go in to things to deep in to your family, freinds, the first mention of suicide will trigger them in to thinking there is something wrong mentally as most proberbly do.

i dont mean to offend genuine people who help in those professions, such as those but it does happen.......

but it really is getting worse in some situations, i go 30+ hours without sleeping at a time, my eating seems to have deteriorated in to a worse state.

i dont really care about life anymore on the whole, i dont really watch tv, what little tv i watched is of no interest, i dont feel like talking to anyone verbally.

if i do i dont really have much to say, even to counter something, which i feel is wrong, you could say i dont 'give a damn about anything' anymore, i mean no offense to people who have helped me but im just saying what i feel.

04-01-2004, 05:33	#147
kronas Inactive Join Date: Jun 2003 Location: heckmondwike Age: 39 Posts: 10,767	Re: what to do ? ok the new year is around us 2004, i hope everyone has a prosperous year this year. (those who deserve it) im feeling better then i have been since i started this thread, but i have my days all too regularly. i sit down and i think why am i so unhappy...... i have great parents, i have some great freinds, i mean you people on here, who have talked to me as well as posted on here, for which i very much appreciate you dont know how much... i try and delve deeper in to my thoughts and this is what i see....... the build up of negativity centered around the inability to achieve something in life, due to the past and present, one must say how can a person achieve nothing in his life ? by nothing i mean life in general i dont mean people who have helped me on here, and tryed to give me good advice, i guess im lucky (for once) to have people like this....... the way i have interpreted my life as it has progressed, is one with deep disatisfaction, not so much as regretting what i have done, (most of it was really out of my hands) but i thought i could show something, i mean something that would provide me with some hope that i have a future in society, i can help people as i still do offline if i am asked on various things............ at the moment im in a 'self destruct' like sequence almost, isolating myself from people the freinds who i have left........ i know what people say get counseling etc, but i really dont trust proffesionals anymore, they tend to go in to things to deep in to your family, freinds, the first mention of suicide will trigger them in to thinking there is something wrong mentally as most proberbly do. i dont mean to offend genuine people who help in those professions, such as those but it does happen....... but it really is getting worse in some situations, i go 30+ hours without sleeping at a time, my eating seems to have deteriorated in to a worse state. i dont really care about life anymore on the whole, i dont really watch tv, what little tv i watched is of no interest, i dont feel like talking to anyone verbally. if i do i dont really have much to say, even to counter something, which i feel is wrong, you could say i dont 'give a damn about anything' anymore, i mean no offense to people who have helped me but im just saying what i feel.