[carlingman]

Good to see youââ‚Âà ‚¬ÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â‚¬Å¾Ã‚¢re still about Kronas.

You have got the right idea being around family and friends when you are feeling low.

If your feeling that low and your friends and family may laugh at you then to me they are not true friends and family else they would have offered support and comfort.

Myself I am not going to pretend to know a lot about yourself or your circumstances but always try and remember the positives.

Obviously you live in a reasonable environment and have as you said your own room and you have access to a PC to be able to post here, trust me there are people in far worse situations.

To me from reading your threads you post in here in general for a 17 year old (if the age is right in your profile) you seem to have a very balanced and mature way of thinking for someone of your age and will achieve success and your goals ultimately.

Try and ignore the people that slate you and put you down and concentrate on achieving your goals and focus on the satisfaction and sense of achievement you will get when someone gives that job or career you want.

Your post does not sound self centered at all but more of a cry for help which many have given here but do seek out some professional help via your GP or similar.

Again I make no attempt to imagine what you must be feeling and going through but from a personal perspective once felt in the same frame of mind after losing my mother when i was a teenager and then having to care and nurse my father through a deteriorating terminal illness and then endure 3 miscarriages with my girlfriend.

As I said earlier look for the positives as I have done, I am now successful in my career along with partner, we now own our house and we are confident we will soon become parents.

I have been kicked so many times when I am down but have got up and battle on and you need to do the same as from my own experiences I can state that things do get better.

As I have I done, draw from the experiences of others and you will get to where you want to be in the end.

To reiterate what others and what I have said though, you need to seek some professional help and guidance.